Monthly Encouragement: Overcoming Confusion and Frustration
Time never stops, does it? Here we are already near the end of 2015!
Maybe I’m a little premature because we still have a month left to go, but I’d like to share a reflection as 2015 comes to a close… :)
As I’ve gotten into the habit of doing, last January I picked my One Word to help me grow in a certain area over the course of the year. I chose “focus” because I had a vision for my life and needed to pick up the pace and work more diligently to make it a reality.
Well surprise, surprise, things didn’t go as smoothly as I’d hoped!
It was more than half-way through the year and I thought I was doing a pretty good job of focusing on my work. But I found myself in a much less “successful” place than I had envisioned and because of that I felt very discouraged and confused.
What I wanted more than anything was just to live out my purpose. I didn’t understand why things weren’t apparently coming together.
Around that time some people and opportunities had presented themselves and made me question whether or not I was on the right path or focusing my energy in the right place. At first I resisted but then became open to the idea that maybe my vision wasn’t quite right. Maybe I needed to shift it a bit to include something else. In the back of my mind I knew I didn’t want to end up like the guy in this funny story, who basically dies because he doesn’t trust the lifelines that come to him in a way other than he’s expecting; I didn’t want to end up refusing an opportunity that could help me because I wasn't yet convinced I needed it.
One day I was really sick of doubting when 1 Corinthians 14:33 came to mind, which says, “for God is not a God of confusion but of peace…” I realized that my frustration and confusion was due to a lack of faith, and I needed to get alone, open my heart and do some praying, trusting that I would get a clear solution to my problem.